Lost.

I am lost and don't know what to do I have no idea who to believe not even myself it is so hard to just sit here and think.
I need my best-friend even if we are away from each other even a text from him makes me feel better,
I know sometimes things maybe rough and that he isn't here physically he is here mentally and in my heart. he always knows what to say I have no idea what to do about the man I am with my mother and my second mum (my best-friend/sister)'s mother tells me that I should follow my guts if my man plans on taking me out of the country and never bring me back home I don't know what to think or say or do but I know one thing my problems go away when I talk to my guy best-friend...even when he's gone away in my heart and in text he's always there even when he isn't really here physically...I am so lost in my own mind even when I try to think of myself it's hard..